Against vaccinations.

In an attempt to get some things off of my chest, I am beginning a blog.  I wanted to call it Conversations With Myself, but of course that was taken.  I'll keep it at "nooneshouldseethis" because, really, I don't intend for anyone I know to read this.  This is, of course, inspired by my sister's secretive blog.  In her efforts to bring me to her level, she began to share some of her blog posts with me in which I was completely enamored.  I've always enjoyed listening to her read, more importantly: things she has written.  It brought me back to our teenage days as she was reading her inner most thoughts and shedding all these layers.  I enjoyed it, and then I wanted someone or something to "talk" to.  She talks to her blog/journal like it is a person and I found that interesting, and I found it a creative way to get some of the information inside of her head out.  Maybe I will try to talk to this blog like it is a person, also?
 I feel kind of funny writing this with no intent to show it to Kyle, I mean, come on- I share EVERYTHING with him. We really don't have any barriers, or things we hide from eachother.... atleast I don't think.  It is not like I am HIDING this, either.  I just want to be able to vent about some things that may cause arguments in our house.
Lately, it is the vaccination issue.
I spend all morning reading of the possible side effects of these vaccinations, and I have a really irrational FEAR of autism and my child loosing all of his beautiful sparkle.  Now that I KNOW some kids may react to some of the additives in these vaccinations, how do i SHARE it with Kyle so that we can be on the same page?......SHRUGS...... I don't know.... How do I educate him? How can he get on the same page as me?

See, it's a really funny issue because his mom has some sight problems due to her parents refusing the vax back then. (19...?) let's see- she is 62- so 2012-62=1952. Back then  in 1952.  She's told me the story before, and I wish i could go into details- but was one of the 2% of people that suffer serious side effects from measels/mumps.  So, I feel it is an uphill battle to discuss with them... i dont feel it is their business.... i dont even want to discuss it with them....- ALSO- his brother's stance on vaccines is VERY intense.  He goes as far as putting his facebook status something like "Stupid parents don't vaccinate their children".....

There was an outbreak in Gilbert public schools of mumps recently. Guess what? That kid was vaxed! This is the type of information that I keep coming across-
There was an outbreak of whooping cough at the Waldorf school- and guess who caught it really bad?? The kid that was vaxed.  So, the fact that the vaccinations aren't even guaranteed to work makes it seem even MORE silly to put all that CRAP into my healthy little sparkling child.  I've seen children have terrible reactions to the peanut oil in the vaccinations.  Carissa, her little son now has anaphalactic reactions to tree nuts because of the peanut oil in the vaccine. Before he was vaxed he was eating peanut butter sandwiches with his mother.  Now, he can't go NEAR nuts. A mother KNOWS when her son has been affected by the vax and I can hear TONS of stories from people about their children never being the same after the vaccination.  The point of the matter is, with the diseases, I feel like we know what to expect and with the vaccines you DONT. you are  gambling and playing roulette.
Why would they use things like egg, peanut, etc when they are in our "american diet".. almost unavoidable? Well, keep the kids SICK with ALLERGIES! YES! Then they will be dependent on the medical system. I really don't think it's a conspiracy, I think the corporations that run the medical world, or our world for that matter really want people to depend on their services, products, etc..... I see a huge connection here and I think other people have put it together... which is how Carissa got educated AFTER she vaxed and AFTER her son has to suffer with this anaphylaxis tree nut allergy.
There is a blood brain barrier and everything goes straight to the childs brain until they are atleast 2.  I don't even want to vax after that, but I have one more year and a half to convert Kyle to the light side.. the nonvax side...  I am planning on getting together with other moms who are a bit more educated on this issue. I want to create a list of PROS and CONS... and also want to make a list backing up my "argument"... and that's the other thing:
I hate calling it an argument, because I don't feel I am educated enough to "convert" this thinking or to "argue" my side of it yet and that is why I want to vent about this right here, right now- and create this list so I feel I have a side.. not an "argument" because I feel like that is just manifesting a fight.